Not one bit, or two.

Posted by wingsofdestiny89

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Anyone thinks this is true?

I use to think it's just a beautiful phrase for the idealistic scenarios is life.

But now i think likewise.

Is it because of my constant company that has eventually turned myself into a safety net?

A safety net which is negligible? A safety net which you know you can rely on, which then you can persue other interests knowing if anything else fails, the net will be there? Or safety net which has been there for so long, which has been there all the while that it needs changing, like old bedsheets?

I do not know myself.

But to be there constantly, is to show the overflowing love and care, not something to be taken for granted.

Just away for awhile, and busy for a moment, things turned out like this.

I'm writing here cause i know not much people will see. As i've said, this will be my personal haven. Random people will not pass.

I do not know what i'm feeling now. I do not know how to live my life now. I do not know if life should continue. I do not know a lot of things.

But i do want to know a lot more. It isn't a good thing to know things 1st hand, but it'll be worse if you're the last to know.

I don't know what i should say at this moment. Or do. Or think.

I'm living my life on a slippery cliff now. When it will slide, when it will end, or when a rope will drop for me to hold on, i do not know.

I don't, not anymore.







..................bye

• at 11/21/2010 11:58:00 PM