No turning back

Posted by wingsofdestiny89

I'm enlisting tomorrow.

I'm having many regrets now. And i'll be missing a lot of ppl.

Or maybe just one. But not that it matters anymore.

I'm going in with a heavy feeling. I know things are going to change.

For better or for the worst, i dunno. But i fear for the worse.

But i know i'm not going to stare at the same celing before i fall asleep tomorrow.

Or spend the same time on the phone every night.

Msging people i'll miss with no time constrains.

Afford to think that i have lots of time to spare.

Sleeping at unearthly hours with company.

And of course, spending time with someone that i enjoy doing it.

Non of that is gonna carry over. I'm officially going to the next chapter of my life.

And sometimes i hope someone understands this feeling of loneliness or helplessness.

A single someone. But when everything slowly sets itself into motion,

you'll know that you are actually alone. No one will be there but yourself.

So in short, i'm going in, and i'm having mixed feelings.

I just want to live yesterday again. Rewind it and i would like to redo things that i've done or undo the mistakes i've made.

Then maybe i'll be happy and living without regrets. But we all know it's not possible.

And i would like to say sorry people.

To ws and gang that i have ps-ed so many times.

To linda for always unable to meet up with you.

To bp and serene for being a lightbulb always during weekends just because i'm feeling down and lonely.

To fiona for not value-ing my life when compared to little charmaine.

To celine for offending you once and i never apologise.

And of course. To T, for disappointing and stressing you always. I'm just being selfish.

I had fun. So long and thanks for all the fish.











................bye.

• at 6/03/2010 12:47:00 AM